{"id":75,"date":"2025-06-03T08:30:07","date_gmt":"2025-06-03T08:30:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/beng.today\/?p=75"},"modified":"2025-06-04T07:10:29","modified_gmt":"2025-06-04T07:10:29","slug":"its-getting-out-of-hand","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/beng.today\/?p=75","title":{"rendered":"It\u2019s getting out of hand"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>I\u2019m doing nothing at all right now. The lists are growing, people are moving on, and I\u2019m stuck\u2014stuck not knowing how to move forward.<br>I start creating systems, but I don\u2019t follow through. I avoid meetings and try to stay home alone\u2014or take the train and wander through cities without any goal.<br>I make a fool of myself by claiming I do things, like being a good leader to others, but I don\u2019t even show up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Today, I started setting goals:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li>Don\u2019t consume<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>Read<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>Exercise<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>Plan every day<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>One coffee in the morning<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I\u2019m doing nothing at all right now. The lists are growing, people are moving on, and I\u2019m stuck\u2014stuck not knowing how to move forward.I start creating systems, but I don\u2019t follow through. I avoid meetings and try to stay home alone\u2014or take the train and wander through cities without any goal.I make a fool of [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-75","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/beng.today\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/75","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/beng.today\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/beng.today\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/beng.today\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/beng.today\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=75"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/beng.today\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/75\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":81,"href":"https:\/\/beng.today\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/75\/revisions\/81"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/beng.today\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=75"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/beng.today\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=75"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/beng.today\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=75"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}